Friday, April 04, 2008

Vow: Day 20

A Discovery

A small professional victory today has floored me. I conquered an aspect of my work world, and now I desire to conquer a girl. I've read about the relationship between the two but am just now feeling a magnified effect of it. The goal is now channel this surge of energy into my next endeavor.

I ask, though, why I need the external event to trigger this. I would much rather desire the self-control beyond any external stimulus or situation. And more than that, I feel I should be in this state all the time regardless of my external situation. This drive and determination should be we with me always, and this is all about achieving that...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Small world? I think I came across this blog thru Google. I think. In any case, I'm from Erie, went to Pitt, CS grad, now is NOVA/DC. You're a strong man on the 40 days deal. No one knows but you how you'll be at the end but maybe just maybe you could get a certain kind of energy and clarity of thought from indulging the external. Just a thought anyway.

Anonymous said...

yoooooooo

20 down
20 to go

i wonder what good this could do though.