I've had a bit of a breakthrough; though, I may not be completely able to credit this. It came mostly from reading The Power of NOW by Eckhart Tolle. It's difficult to describe, but imagine the voice in your head; pay attention to it. The fact that you are able to "hear" that voice implies there is something speaking in your head and something listening... two separate entities. The speaker is your mind trying to control you, the listener is actually you.
The realization then followed that I am not my mind. I am, instead, the passive observer of my mind, of the constant stream of thoughts it sends my way, most of which is bullshit I don't need to think or feel. And I suddenly became aware of something behind it. It happens for moments at a time, but I witness I deep, flowing sense of calm. I can't describe it.
I now have a wider perspective on my internal state... when I can focus on it. For any amount of it that my mind now throws at me, desire, thoughts, emotions, and energy can just flow out into an ocean of... nothingness.
Crazy. I know.
But profound.
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